wild melody

The promised expoundation* upon the "fireworks" ... A few posts ago I mentioned that God did some explosive works in my heart. (aka fireworks) First of all, explosive doesn't mean new. God isn't telling me "move to Ghana". In fact, my circumstances are static. (good static). Second, this is probably going to be a rather ramblish*, spewing-thoughts-rapidly-as-they-flow post. I haven't sorted any of it out. But what better use for a blog than to record the goodness of God? Jan 7-8 I went to a "Growing in Gifts of the Spirit" retreat. I entered it living life in black & white and left seeing in technicolour. Seriously. The past few months I'd been in a season of semi-darkness. I was weary. Partly because I was continually falling off of the fine line between "bearing other's burdens by carrying them to Christ" and "bearing other's burdens on my small shoulders in pride." My fight for joy was half-hearted. In fac...

baby bingley has arrived! :) ethan michael ascough arrived finally at 3:41 this morning. He was 5lbs 11oz, 5 weeks early, and gorgeous . (i am not of the opinion that all babies are beautiful--but he is. oh so presh . of course i am not a biased almost-aunt or anything.) be forewarned, the next paragraph is girlish talk from someone who came home at 5 this morning and awoke before 8. read at your own peril! i am freshly in awe at God's creative genius. last night i was at florida hospital south for 9 hours. i'm far more familiar with that place than i ever wished to be, but now i remember it's possible to be in a hospital for joyous reasons. i was blessed to partially witness the amazing amazing gift from God called birth. oh my soul. i was there when my siblings were born and when mum schwab had mira . but this was way different. maybe because i remember when stephanie was 10 and we pretended to be moms in her backyard? anyway, i can understand why people call some...

" Be patient, therefore, brothers, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, being patient about it, until it receives the early and the late rains. You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand. Do not grumble against one another, brothers, so that you may not be judged; behold, the Judge is standing at the door ." James 5.7-9 patient , adj . 1. Bearing or enduring pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance with calmness. 2.Marked by or exhibiting calm endurance of pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance. 3. Persevering; constant 4.Capable of calmly awaiting an outcome or result; not hasty or impulsive. 5.Capable of bearing or enduring pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance. I am not patient. I want to be patient. God is patient with me. Hallelujah! {I thought I'd have time this morning to expound on the "fireworks" but I've been called into work early. henc...

Wife + Mother + Daughter + Friend . lover of God. faithful . servant. patient. peacemaker. beautiful . (amazing) cook. wise . bookworm. loving . letter-writer. encouraging. (incredibly) selfless. kind. busy. worshipper. gracious. teacher . funny. caregiver. strong . Thank you for being all that ^ and more mum. Happy birthday. May your "year of jubilee" be filled with more portraits of God's faithful grace. You are one of the most marvelous blessings in my life!

I've had an unplanned blog haitus. Life is very busy. Nothing new or changing circumstantially (despite my attempts haha) just busier. Spiritually, I feel like God is setting off fireworks inside. There is so much going on under the surface. I'm overwhelmed. It's impossible to express... much less understand it all! I'll try to write some of it out later. It would be good for me to get it out of my head and into the semi-reality of words. A point of reference for what will come later. (don't you love the vagueness) This song is where my soul has been for many months. A good /difficult place. Difficult because I see more and more my unfaithfulness and impatience. Good because what He reveals He works on; and in seeing my great sinfulness I have also seen His great grace. He allowed me to feel how great is my desperation for Him. He did not allow me to feel His closeness. I should shut up and let Brooke Fraser speak for me. There’s distance in the air And I cannot mak...