ouch.

i just read abigail's latest Ukraine post.

ouch.

conviction much? i too, have certain things where i have been knocking. and i haven't pushed through until God changes my heart--because i don't want him too. well i do, i really do! mmm, or maybe not so much? my actions would testify to the latter.

i don't want an answer.

because it won't come easily. it won't be all glory and light and peace. it will be hard-fought.

it's going to take wrestling, and probably dig up some pain.

healing is always painful here on the broken earth.

guess i know what i'll be doing tonight.

sigh,

but also

hooray! i've needed a catalyst. hooray for Jesus using people, for Jesus taking my sin to it's end. bearing the horrendous wrath i've earned. for declaring me righteous by His blood. so that i can approach the throne, for fellowship with God as Father. hooray that i know He'll do a good work. hooray that indwelling sin truly is beaten, just not vanquished yet.

so much to be grateful for!!