faithfulness

In Your grace, You know where I walk

You know when I fall

You know all my ways

In Your love, I know you allow what I can not grasp

To bring you praise

Thank you for the trials

For the fire

For the pain

Thank you for the strength

Knowing You have ordained every day

Your great power is shown when I'm weak

You help me to see Your love in this place

Perfect peace is filling my mind

And joy in my heart to praise You again

In my uncertainty Your word is all I need to know

You're with me every day

*copyright joel sczebel & todd twining

This song has become my anthem of sorts. {Since December} It paints a picture that reflects the state of my heart. Or rather, the state it should be. It strays. Often I react instead of respond. There are times my sinfulness astounds me. Take today. I was reading the Word of God. Surely my heart would be centered? Yet at that very moment my thoughts were wandering into the not-trusting-God-scenario of "what could go wrong next?" His grace is always avaliable when I'm weak. The glorious gospel never changes!

That's what I love about this song. It helps me fight the battle because it turns my focus. Up to where it should be--the Sovereign goodness of God. Yet it doesn't deny my surroundings--uncertainty and bittersweetness. There is natural sorrow but there is a joy too. It's a paradox I find myself living in. And because I'm sinful, I need scripture, songs, and prayer based on objective truth. (and mum. mums are amazing refocusing tools!) It can be easy to say "I choose to trust God, this is good even if it looks like sadness." Easy to say. Easy to mean 100% and live? That takes a little more effort.

I'm a slow learner, but He is a patient teaher. All that rambling to say: God is faithful. His steadfastness is a sure foundation. I am unendingly grateful for it.

"Wait for the Lord, be strong and let your heart take courage."