10.12.2005

waiting for someday

I can't pretend to be something I'm not. This will be serious. (synonymous with boring?) My soul is too heavy and I am feeling too much right now to care.
I'm sitting here with many questions running through my mind, knowing that they won't be answered. I don't know if an answer could help anway. It'd probably be beyond my comprehension. "His ways are not are own". Yet I find comfort in asking; because it reminds me that He has reasons. And that I don't have to do anything but trust. What peace.
In this fallen world there is so much "broken glass". How often we find ourselves cut and bleeding; in desperate need of a Healer to breathe mercy on our wounds.

Nothing tragic happened to me. But sometimes when others are hurt; it hits very close to home. Your heart breaks for them. There is nothing you can do but pray. And hope for someday.

Someday
I believe in the rest of the story
I believe there's still ink in the pen
I have wasted my very last day
Trying to change what happened way back when
I believe it's the human condition
We all need to have answers to why
More than ever, I'm ready to that I
Will still sleep peacefully
With answers of reach from me until...

Someday all that's crazy
All that' s unexplained
Will fall into place
And someday all that' s hazy
Through a clouded glass
Will be clear at last
And sometimes we're just waiting
For someday

We are born with a lingering hunger
We are born to be unsastified
We are strangers who can't help but wander
And dream about the other side until

...Every unsolved mystery
More than half of every whole
Rests in the Hands that hold you for someday....


Someday when I leave this broken earth and see glory. Someday I will never be sad or sick again. Someday my mom will get to hold Bryson, and we will no longer have to imagine his face. Someday I will fall on my knees before my Savior. Someday I will sing around His throne. Someday I will be able to breathe as deeply as I possibly can, at any given time. Someday I will be home.

13 comments:

Brittany said...

Ahhh, Damaris I'll be praying specifically for you more often. Were you ever going to send me that e-mail?

damaris said...

OH YES!! those scriptures!! I will get on it right away!! I am truly sorry.

I appreciate the prayer. I've been doing great but today was just one of those days when everything wieghed heavily.

PLEASE pray for the bellamy's cause they need it far more than i.
:(

joel sczebel said...

Lots of questions in my head. No answers though.

be my guide through
through the dark of night
put all fear to flight
You are hope and truth
I want to trust in you
and in all I don bring you honor and praise


Oh yeah, good song on your post. Who wrote it?

Josh Sczebel said...

yikes!
i need to post.
i would give this one a 6 on the tear jerker scale.

HAHA.joke.
sorry. bad post to joke on.

Brittany said...

Yes, I am still praying for the Bellamys. Have you heard anything yet?

Lauren said...

I talked to Sterling. I wanted to cry. They really need our prayers guys.

damaris said...

All i know is mrs. bellamy lost the baby; and they're having a hard time. that's what i heard tues night. which is why i posted this. i wanted to cry myself and almost did; for them and because it brings back memories....
she was alot farther along though.


thanks joe. nice poemy thing. someday written by nicole ???
(some christian singer my dad has)

rebekah said...

what? i didnt know that. how did you find out? not that it matters, but that is so sad. i feel their pain, i know what it is like to lose someone before they have even entered this world. i will definitely be praying for them too.

Brittany said...

I knew she went in yesterday to be induced but I haven't heard anything since.

Brittany said...

Speaking of babies, please be praying for my mom. She is really sick and has less than a month to go.

alice said...

damaris- do you need to blab?

i am here! anytime! email is a gift- use it!

alice said...

damaris- do you need to blab?

i am here! anytime! email is a gift- use it!

Josh Sczebel said...

damaris- do you need to blab?

i am here, email is a gift use it.



HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
i love it when people post twice.

haha
so funny.