10.01.2005

unusual post. but there are some redeeming qualities.

hi. i'm posting from beks house. say hi beks. she always looks over my shoulder. she reads slow and goes "dont turn the page yet". hoser. Mary K. is here to. she said she'll kick me out and make me homeless if i'm mean. Now she's excited because HER NAME IS IN PRINT! wow. we're really tired. we've been ice skating. i love ice skating. except that i go really fast and can't stop and slam into the plexiglass like a hockey player....haha. another good reason to move to canada, eh?

i got the new David Crowder cd. my mom loves david's songs. so i opened it in the car and started reading. sitting in the car at walmart this is what i read:
"This recording is about that collision. It is the collision of our fallen state and our Maker's transcendence....it is about too many who know intensely what pain the word 'cancer' holds and the words of my friend whispered in my ear, 'it's okay. none of us are getting out of here alive, you know.' It is about victory. It is about the joy that comes when blood tests return and a miracle is announced. It is the hope in a rescue that is come, a rescue that has found us, and the relentless hope in a greater rescue that is still coming--one that has not yet arrived but is no less present."
I had tears running down my face after reading that aloud. How true those words are. But God is good! For those of you who are like "what the heck" I'll try to explian.
My mom's sister is in her last chemo stages after a long hard struggle with cancer. (now her mom has cancer). It's only by God's amazing grace that aunt Lori is alive right now; not 2 years ago we thought she would be dying. You reach a point when every time the phone rings it makes your heart constrict. You wonder that maybe if you don't answer everything will be ok. I have been there when the phone is answered and you hear the words "blood counts are up". Then everyone starts screaming and looking at each other like "this is impossible." God is amazing. And now she is almost through (oh happy day!!).
Then there is my good friend from dance who fought it (and won) at only 13. Another victory from God.
Which gives me hope to think that maybe God will shock the doctors and my grandma will be healed on earth. If not we will be okay; she will go home. I can't really think about that now. this is getting alot deeper than I planned. It's a little more personal than i normally share. maybe it will encourage someone...

"when i look at the staaaaars...i see someone else."
out.

27 comments:

pippin said...

damaris is driving me nuts, because she is right... i am a slow reader. poor mary had to wait while i r....e....a....d....s....l...o....w....l....y.... They are nice though. and that was random, but i am almost always random, so get used to it!! I love you Merry, even though you said nasty things about me, i will let you sleep in peace tonight, and i will not set my pet roch on you ;)

damaris aka merry said...

saying you read slow isnt mean.... and i am not afraid of your pranks becasue i come up with better ones...
hahahahaa laughing at inside jokes...

(bekah and pippin are the same people)

wall hugger said...

That explains who Pippin is.

atticus Finch said...

hahaha. In the winter in Vancouver, we get so much rain that the fields flood, and then it gets so cold that they freeze, and you can go skate on them. It's like a really big rink, except that if the water isn't deep enough you get little grass blades sticking up through the ice, and they make it a little bumpy. Other than that it's great. Or else you could go skate on a pond or a lake, but the ice never gets thick enough, and when you fall through you'll have the beavers to deal with. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

wall hugger said...

Ahhhh! Don't tell me how great Canada is. I miss it enough!

jem said...

Beavers scare the heck outta me.

jem said...

Such big teeth.

JOSH . iam not trying to be anybody. said...

nice.
hanging out with the beckster and knowles, you got the crowd, had a happy moment, and got some jeans.
sounds like a good day. i want some jeans. now i am discontent. thanks damaris.

jean claude said...

Hmmm? Say wat? Jeans? I want some.

not damaris said...

the beckster?! haha, thats great Josh. she doesnt have enough knicknames

rebekah said...

Damaris told me to tell you all that she misses you and she cant post/ comment tonight because it is late and she is driving home in the dark raininess (weird/wierd wording my own). she is probably listening to dave crowder too, we have listened to it almost all day. thanks sczebels for telling her about the collision, i like it, i'll try not to steal it. hehehe

jem said...

"they put the world in a tin can,
black market contraband,
and it hurt just a little bit,
when they sliced and packaged it.....

You just wanna get it right sometimes....

It's how you see the world......"

Coldplay-how you see the world

since they didn't play any at the rink.

jem said...

knicknames? what's a knickname? hahaha.
in ole' canada we call it a nickname. no K.
hahahaha. not that it really matters I just wanted to let you all ( I'll never say yall) know.

I look up, I look up at night
Planets are moving at the speed of light,
Climb up, up in the trees
Every chance that you get is a chance you seize
How long am I gonna stand
With my head stuck under the sand
I'll start before I can stop or
Before I see things the right way up

All that noise and all that sound
All those places I got found
And birds go flying at the speed of sound
To show you how it all began
Birds came flying from the underground
If you could see it then you'd understand

Ideas that you'll never find
All the inventors could never design
The buildings that you put up
Japan and China all lit up
The sign that I couldn't read
or a light, that I couldn't see
Some things you have to believe
While others are puzzles, puzzling me.

there. a little more Coldplay for ya.

alice/the canadian blonde said...

okay i have to admit that josh that was really funny! i laughed! i am glad you ENJOYED shopping Betty! i am almost there! (actually i just got a pair of jeans that i LOVE too!) i hate skating-actually i enjoy skating it is the smashing into the glass part that i am not so fond of! you talked alot about becky when you were here... so say hi! i am cold and sick and i miss FL (isn't that crazy you miss it and you have never been?) even with all of your guys..."it is so ugly aand hot and humid and horrible" i still want to come. i miss you and the other e-teamers a bunch....... talk to you soon.... i'll email you tomorrow!

Josh Sczebel said...

hey hey,
the beckster just commented today!
haha. i love making up random knicknames for people i don't even know. knowly.

haha

Brittany said...

Ali, I like shopping but not jean shopping. I can never find some to fit.

rebekah said...

please, no becky... it is the only name i will not allow.

i like thinking up knicknames (sorry, thats how i spell it) for people too, but so far my brain isnt ready to think of any.

on another random note (i am very random) i get so confused with the whole canada time thingy and seeing yall write like its day, but here its in the middle of the night.

Brittany said...

Some of the other blogs are on Canadian time.

alice said...

sorry! never again will i call you *_____

jem said...

hi becky!

hahahaha.

sorry.

Brittany said...

You're soooooo mean. Poor Rebekah.

Josh Sczebel said...

Miss Bennet,
I have deeply appreciated your literature that you have posted so faithfully, and long to read another one of your marvelous adventures! I want to ask you in the most humble and lowly of ways if you would consider my request. I will accept whatever you chose and your friendship will remain highly valuable no matter the decision.

with deep gratitude,
Josh Sczebel.

(hahaha)

jem said...

josh. you would not have fit in back then.

Brittany said...

HAHAHAHA!

Amber said...

I hate shopping for jeans. It takes forever, I can never find what I need and when I find something that I think works it doesn't pass the mom inspection. Anywho, hi Betty! I miss you! I'm going on vacation next week and I won't have access to a computer until I get back! AAAAAHHHHH!

Amber said...

Hey, what ever happened to those pics you took at church that one afternoon? I want to see them!

rebekah said...

ya, i want to see them too.
and why havent you posted in a while? are you busy or something? ;)